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Hello sanity where have you been the past month or so? [Jul. 26th, 2009|08:14 am]
Casey Papp
[location |AUBURN!!!!]
[mood |awake yet in bliss]
[music |Transformers 2 soundtrack!!!]

I am back in Auburn from Americus, GA and done with my internship with outstanding knowledge of the poultry industry, some good and some bad, but never-the-less eat more chicken damnit so I will have a job when I graduate!!!!   I miss a few people but am glad to be away from others.  Note***must get Remington Steele back to Mo***

Sarah moves out completely tomorrow and I am *crossing fingers* moving to my new apt on Tuesday!  Ashley's baby shower Saturday in Huntsvegas.  Allison's baby shower is also coming up here shortly.  Gah, why is everyone either getting engaged, getting married, or having a baby these days... it's getting old people, haha!

Oh I officially look alot different... think Bella and you shall understand completely!  My friends that I was with lastnight started calling me Bella after I got done with my hair appt!!  I can't wait for everyone to see it because I think it looks absolutely gorgeous and they agree!  I wish I had gotten some pictures lastnight but sadly my camera is dying and the battery charger is, like everything else, in Huntsville since I thought I was gunna be moving in this weekend!!!

Life has gotten so much better in the past few days its not even funny!  No still haven't found that perfect guy for me and Yes I am still single and No I am still having money problems (thanks new tires) but had to do something different with my hair just to change in some way physically so I could look in the mirror and at least see something different for once!

Oh, never again am I taking an online class... entirely too much freedom for my good.  I tend to forget about it and kind of forget to study and all those important aspects... at least its almost over!!!

So Chris (Mr. Naval Officer/Instructor/Fisherman) called me lastnight but I didn't catch it till entirely too late.  Says he can't stop thinking about me and wants to know when I'm coming back down to the beach!  Haven't called back or texted due to not wanting to seem entirely too eager hahaha!!

MC I'm completely jealous of you haha but congrats to being in cloud 9!  Sorry I couldn't get that picture... my Mom is well my Mom!  Erin, so happy you got a new car and got to go to camp... I know how much it meant to you!  To Both: Y'all need to see my hair ASAP!!!!  I need opinions so far everyone is loving it but I gotta have y'alls and pictures don't justify at all in this case!

Well, that's my life as of now... hope you've enjoyed the show!
~*~Trouble~*~
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"21 Guns"-Green Day [Jul. 14th, 2009|11:01 pm]
Casey Papp
[location |Amerisuck aka Loserville USA]
[mood |predatory]
[music |Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen Soundtrack]

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I


What's the use in fighting for something that is no longer there anymore?  Emotionless, fearful, nothingness, emptiness, BLANK INSIDE AND OUT.  I think my heart is masochistic... it tends to like pain more than happiness... gets joy out of pain.  I have to admit I am a bit of a masochist in *certain* ways that well need not mentioning at this particular moment but I never in a million years would have thought my heart would be too.  FYI-if you haven't noticed that is my new favorite word these days.  Listen to your heart, never give up, and fight for what you believe is worth fighting for but nothing else... I keep telling myself this over and over again just to make myself believe that one of these days someone someday will want me emotionally just as much as physically... hell at this moment anything would be better than nothing, heh!  There goes my fucked up thinking agian... oh well what else is new... not much.  If love is blind then how are we supposed to see it or hell find it???

Well that is all for now... keep listening on and maybe my life playlist will find some happier less hopelessly dreaming songs, cross your fingers.

~Trouble~
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"Let Me Sign" Rob Pattinson [Jul. 7th, 2009|11:59 pm]
Casey Papp
[location |Amerisuck!]
[mood |numb]
[music |Rob Pattinson]

She was standing there by the broken tree
Her hands were all twisted she was pointing at me
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky
She said ' Come on over to the bitter shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you've been saved'
Let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

I was out for a drink in a soho bar
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost
She was the woman that I wanted the most
As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand
I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand'
Let me sign, let sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

As I walked through the door she was still in my head
As I entered the room she was laid there in bed
She reached out for me all twisted in black

I was on my way down, never coming back
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

I felt the need to put these here and I'm not entire sure because it doesn't relate to me at all but this song seems to burn in my soul like a gasoline spill blazing thru the woods and I don't understand why... I think its just making me want to be in that position or maybe its a deeper truth of me wanting to find something yet I don't know what.  Lately, I've been feeling lost like I'm searching for a lost cause never to be found yet I keep finding my self looking farther and harder for it day by day night by night.  I need something that will make me relax... or maybe I need something that will excite my soul for once.  Or maybe I just need to stop thinking so hard about it all and just free fall into nothing until something or someone catches my attention and never look back on fear again.  I know I'm yearning for attention but not in that selfish type of way but in a loving sort of way.  I can't stand seeing people happy (more or less in relationships) because I feel I will never find that for myself which makes me so unbelievably depressed its unbearable to where it feels like the weight of the world is put on my shoulders and I crumble to the earth's surface with a smashing crash.  I wish I could have what everybody around me seems to have found but its nowhere in reaching distance let alone sight.

Signed sincerely yours,
Lost and Yearning
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Paramore "Misery Business" [Jul. 2nd, 2009|09:48 pm]
Casey Papp
[location |AUBURN!!!]
[mood |anxious]
[music |Paramore "Misery Business"]

I'm in the business of misery
Let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass
That's ticking like a clock

It's a matter of time
Before we all run out
When I thought he was mine
She caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months
She finally set him free
I told him I can't lie
He was the only one for me

Two weeks and we caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now

But God, does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God, it just feels so
It just feels so good

Second chances they don't ever matter
People never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more
I'm sorry, that'll never change

And about forgiveness
We're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey but I'm passing up
Now look this way

Well there's a million other girls
Who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible
To get to who

They want and what they like
It's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now

But God, does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God, it just feels so
It just feels so good

I watched his wildest dreams come true
And not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now

But God, does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God, it just feels so
It just feels so good


Had an urge to post this for some odd reason... who the hell knows why!

Can't wait till Tomorrow!!!!
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... bittersweet symphony that's life ... [Jun. 26th, 2009|01:26 am]
Casey Papp
[location |Amerisuck!]
[mood |curious]
[music |"Let Me Sign"-Rob Pattinson]

I am curious as to where my sick masochistic lion is... no really!  I want to find someone that will love me no matter what... I'm honestly tired of searching.  Where art thou romeo...?!?  Weddings make me sad, seeing people happy in relationships depresses me, love in every sense makes my body hurt so deep down I feel as if a huge hole is forming in my gut.  I've been "single" far long enough and I'm sick of it... literally sick of it.  If anybody out there has a cure to my problem, please feel free to help... seriously please!  I want a guy that makes me feel like I'm perfect in every way or at least damn close.

ps-I'm buying a pair of Ray-Ban Wayfarers very very soon, I find them sexy!
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Alpha Psi Rodeo!!! [Apr. 5th, 2009|07:17 pm]
Casey Papp
[location |the apartment]
[mood |flirty]
[music |I love colllege... I love drinkin'... SWEET SONG!]

Yesterday was flippin SWEET!!!  I had so much get drunk before NOON, gettin' covered in mud and dirt, rockin to Jon Anderson, passing out, getting burnt, falling down... SO MUCH FREAKIN' FUN!!!  I am definitely going next year... no DAMN doubt about that!!!  I totally hope that my good guy friend Colby actually comes down... cause that would be AWESOME!!!  I love that drunk so much!!!  One of my best guy friends EVER!  Time to finish makin my dinner!

Peace out HOMIES,
Casey
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oh me oh my!! [Feb. 22nd, 2009|06:14 pm]
Casey Papp
[location |the apt... haha]
[mood |hyper]
[music |Bad Girlfriend-Theory of a Dead Man]

I met a cute boy on Friday at the wildest party I've been to in a while!  Possibly have a cracked tailbone... long story ask if you must!  Ugh, I need to desperately find a date to the spring semi-formal and well no luck yet!  I would love to take mr. cute boy I met Friday but well am too chicken to ask on fb and since well kitchen lit on fire and wasn't able to switch numbers!  I need to study for my microbiology test that's on Tuesday but all in all have way to many things on my mind at this moment!  Ahh... why did the stupid kitchen have to catch on fire and ruin everything!  Boo on that shit!

Well, I really need to study and I'm at least gunna try... not that it'll actually happen but at least I said I'm gunna try haha!

~*~Casey~*~
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and we were drunk and didn't know.... HAH!! [Feb. 18th, 2009|10:13 pm]
Casey Papp
[mood |drunk]

It is 10:15 PM and yes sir I am drunk already HAHA!!  Gotta love drinkin and flirtin' with the sexy ass Outback waiter... OMG HE WAS F'IN GORGEOUS!!  Listenin' to my awesome music collection... kickin' my neighbors ass collection to hell!! 



ANIMAL HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


"hey hey paula, i will marry you, hey hey paula, no one else will do..." HAHA

"well... you know you make me wanna shout..."


 


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sketch... [Feb. 6th, 2009|11:03 am]
Casey Papp
[location |the apt]
[mood |annoyed]
[music |N/A]

Okay got a list of things that are driving me up the flippin' wall and are starting to piss me off:
1. People not returning texts and phone calls... its rude don't do it!
2. Guys being sketch... damn fuckers!!
3. Cover charges, ARG!!!
4. Organic chem.. seriously my major is poultry science why the fuck do I need this shit?!
5. Parking and construction on campus... I'm flat fed up with it!!
6. This massively screwed up weather!!!

Well that is all for now... hope everyone has a lovely day :)
... except for one person... I hope your day sucks ass!!  or at least until you return my freakin phone calls and texts, fucker!
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the wonders of rushing... [Jan. 21st, 2009|10:49 pm]
Casey Papp
[location |the apt]
[mood |anxious]
[music |my phone buzzing every now and then]

So, I'm pretty sure I have yet to mention the fact that I am currently rushing the Sigma Alpha sorority.  Two days down and two more to go!  Let's hope that the last two go as well as the others!!  It's actually been really fun and all the girls are really sweet!  I really really hope I make it in... I already knew a bunch of them beforehand and they're the reason I rushed so y'all keep those fingers crossed for me... I shall find out friday if I'm in or not!

Later,
Casey
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